Pain....

I wake up in pain.....I go to bed in pain....but at least I wake up and can sleep in a comfy bed. Pain has become a part of my life and that just where I am right now. The pain meds ease the discomfort temporarily and I keep telling myself that the discomfort is truly temporary....I will be glad when I do not need to fill another prescription, but for now I do so because I see the value in pain modification, not because I want to pop the pills that make me giggle in my sleep and have freaky dreams.....but because they really do help me with pain....

I started to get back on track with my schedule today. Hubby did laundry before he left this morning and then I folded it....kids can put away. Drove kids to school and tried to miss as many potholes as I could. I never noticed that we had so many potholes till it hurt to roll over one....
Each day I get stronger and am diligent in my recovery. I have decided to give myself a daily spiritual check up in order to discover and demonstrate how my life should be lead. I am sure to fall by the waste side but at least I try!!

I have this feeling that a storm is brewing.....possibly with the Christians I spoke about earlier in my blog or it could be the weather...at any rate I need to be ready. I need to be physically ready. I am already there mentally, but I need the whole package in order to rebuke the devil and show him that he is a liar!! hahaha.....funny thing about some Christians they don't think that they need to show humility and kindness. Sometimes we get caught up in a whirlwind of things in our lives and forget that part of being human....it amazes me....

Titus 3:2 tell us that humility should be shown to all and Colossians 3:12 tells us to cover ourselves with kindness. So why are we so mean to one another? I know I have had my fair share of meanness, but now that I am in a position of limited physical activity it has caused me to reflect. How I have treated people and how people have treated me. Some of the bad people I have let into my life have done things to me because they feel bad about themselves...they need to read Scripture or at least a good Stephen King book to find out what happens to mean people....even the mean things I have done to others has not come without provocation....I'm not justifying....I'm just sayin' I don't start it.....

So I will take it easy for the rest of the day, take mom to the airport, pick up the kids and rest some more.....taking it one moment at a time.....saving my life.....