Spouses need support too....

Last night my hubby and I had a heart to heart. He expressed his fears and wondered for a moment...why MY wife? I reassured him that in this journey of life sometimes you are chosen to receive things that you don't want so it's just tag your it!!

We went through some scripture, specifically, Exodus 14:14 where it states, "The LORD himself will fight for you; you have only to keep still." And we are creatures of habit. We don't want to be still. We want to fight, work, do what we can. Being still is not an option.

What I realized about my hubby at that moment was that for our entire relationship he has always "fixed" things. He is a contractor and has a natural flair for creating and building but he "fixes" everything. The toilet, when our sons put cars in there to "see" how they would float....the garbage disposal, when my mom put potato peels in it (numerous times...she's not convinced that it clogs up because of that), my daughters boo boo when it's really only a scrape or new light fixtures to enhance the outside of our home.

This he cannot fix. He must rely on other men to fix it for him...what a blow. Not really to his ego, he doesn't have one, but just the reliance on someone else to make sure your family is safe is frightening. Again...it's the ebb and flow of life....sometimes we must give up that control and this is from a control freak.....hahahaha....I crack me up!!! So if you see him, give him a hug and reassure him that GOD is in control....

So today is turning out to be a good day....I am cooking a fabulous dinner for my family (just some chicken in the crock pot....hahaha) and have vowed to focus my energy on my family and friends in these few days before my surgery because when I come home I am not sure how much talking I will want to do....just going to let my body guide me. I am continuing to eliminate evil people from my life....one jackass at a time....and this will SAVE MY LIFE.....