March 2, 2009

Today was busy...making lists, checking them twice....and I already know who's naughty and nice. People continue to get in my space and reduce my positive energy and today I refuse for that to happen. Today I reject anything resembling Satan and his merry band of idiots.....I had a great talk with some friends this weekend, Annitra, Diane and Deb and they made me laugh and promise to not keep my head above water but stand on top of the waterfall! I take heed and move forward....

Continuing my preparation.....Last night my hubby and I told the kids...here was the reaction ~ my oldest said since we are part Irish and my operation was on St. Patty's Day I would have the luck of the Irish on my side, my youngest son wanted to know how many days I would be boobless and to "stuff" my bra, nobody will know and my daughter...AKA mini/me wanted to know if she could take my old "tities" for show and tell. Do you see why I need to have this surgery? My kids are bright, funny, loving and some days difficult...but they are the reason I draw breathe. When I was younger my mom would tell me, "I hope you have 10 just like you" Well I have at least 2 just like me and would not trade them for the world:)

I was watching CNN today and a commentator was explaining the healthcare portion of the stimulus bill....I'm not going to get political, just hear me out. According to this woman, if you were released from your employment from Sept 1, 2008 to December 31, 2009 and had to go on a COBRA plan, the government will subsidize 65% of your premium.

Well hot damn I say, here comes my bailout!! And if this is true I say poo poo to all that don't agree....ya see our COBRA premium is a mortgage payment. To a family of 5 with only 1 person employed this is reason to celebrate. To all that believe this is welfare....I agree....I'm just not too proud to beg....Ya see I did not grow up on subsidies (although my Aunt Gracie would always find a block of gov't cheese to give us) but I won't knock people who did. If you are trying to do the best you can with what you have but need a little help, I say not only will I take it and run, I will do so with my head held high because I know my ancestors built this country on their backs and I've been paying taxes since I was 14 (first job in church rectory for 14.07 a week) so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's not the train trying to run me over....I also know that this place we are in is temporary. My husband will find work, I will be well and life will return to "normal" as we know it.

It's the ebb and flow of life....we will not stay stuck here for too long, a change is gonna come soon....I feel it. Call it a spiritual awakening I just feel it....

So I am strengthened by the power of faith....I will use it in my daily walk, my daily prayer, my yoga session (even if I can't cross my legs and arms the way they do on the tape) and eventually GOD will reveal his plan for me.....so in the mean time faith is the essential ingredient that will SAVE MY LIFE......