Language....

My grandfather used to say....watch the toes you step on today, they may be connected to the ass you have to kiss tomorrow....I watch my words when talking to people and I always have a high expectation that people will do the same. Not so. I always try to tell people exactly what I want them to know because this cuts down on confusion....its just the way I was bred I guess. I saw my oldest son do an amazing job at a reading in church today and a woman who shall remain nameless to protect the village of idiots she emerged from asked me "why are you choosing this?, why not try and save your breasts?" I wanted to say...."oh hell I don't know, just felt like getting my tities cut off on St. Patty's Day".....dumb ass.....wth?? My friends Diane and Kelly who both went through this told me this would happen. I vividly remember Kelly saying in Starbucks....people will say dumb things because they don't know what to say....well I am asking all of those people.....shut the hell up. Do not take for granted that everyone will know how incredibly stupid you are and treat you like the idiot you deserve to be treated like. It's best for all concerned if you just say nothing.

So I simply replied, "my children are my greatest love not my boobs." I then gave her the blog address and wished her and her family well. I hope she reads this....and shuts the hell up.

Okay, I talked to my doctor cousin's husband who is also a doctor which makes him my doctor cousin husband cousin-in-law...hahaha.... and he has read all of my pathology reports and recommendations. He has done several rounds of oncology training and I just wanted a second pair of eyes on my paperwork. He stated that my cell type if left untreated would have manifested into an aggressive type of cancer which is surely fatal. This confirmed my gut decision that I was doing the right thing and ready to move forward....what disturbed me was that my doctor did not use the same language. My hubby stated that he used similar language but I needed to hear the words "if left untreated" and "aggressive." There again the words and language we choose will have an effect on the people receiving the message. I put a call into him and was ready to cuss him out but by the time he called back I wasn't mad anymore so I just said never mind....

I cannot stress the importance of early detection. Get your check ups, make sure if you are not feeling well you need to go see a doctor and don't let up until that little voice in your head says your o.k. Now this is not to be confused with the other little voices....hahahaha....

My friend Annitra is doing a 5K run for cancer research this weekend in Wilmington, NC in honor of me:) I miss her terribly and her husband will return from Iraq this month after a 1 year tour and she still found time to think about me.....just like my friend Dena making my youngest son her special blueberry bread simply because he asked or my friends taking me to lunch today to make me laugh, or my Soror Lynne coming to help out next week and of course my mom coming for however long I need her, or Kevin's sister coming for a week to also help out, or the many mom's praying for me and ....just thinking about me is overwhelming and I will stop here to simply say, thank you for being a part of my life and SAVING MY LIFE....