Wisdom.....

Okay, yesterday started off good, then went downhill......as promptly the stroke of 11am my BET cable station did not work. Calling the pin heads at the cable company doesn't work it only stresses me more....so I continue on my day, pick up my kids and what happens? My battery that I knew would die, died....okay, I get a new battery, they can't put it in, so I get the battery and try to go home....car won't start due to battery. I wait to get a jump and yup, my hubby who fixes everything, put my new battery in:) A man with a wrench is very sexy in case you don't know.......

I called the cable company today as my BET channel remains obstinate, yet letting another day go by where I can't find out who's the baby daddy, and this time I got smart. I figured since I took control of my health I can take control of my cable problem. So I called not wanting another "refresh signal", they can take that signal and shove it where the sun doesn't ever want to shine.....but I want a human being to come and fix my damn cable!! Will report tomorrow what they find.....I am beginning to think this this thing we call life is a conspiracy and when I find out who is behind it, I'm gonna kick their ass....My friend Sarah gave me an alternate outlet for my obsession with other people's problems...fmylife.com....when you think your having a bad day, there is always somebody doing worse....

Okay so ask me. Ask me what, ask me....anything. One of the things that froots my loops is when people ask other people about you. If you want to know about me, ask me! This morning as I was dropping my little darlings off at school and I was speaking to some mom's in the parking lot. I walked away to greet another friend for the morning and one mom who I don't know very well asked a friend of mine what was going on with me. She "heard" I was having surgery and wanted to know how me and my family were doing. Sounds innocent, but I was just talking to her less than 2 minutes prior....ask me about me. This is how rumors and the gossip mill starts. It's ridiculous to me that grown ass women act like children....where do we learn this behavior? Can we presume we are raised by wolves then handed over to our parents....it's either a ridiculous concept to believe that people do not have to talk behind your back or I'm overly sensitive right now....I do know the difference....So screw the people who can't ask me about me....but stop asking....I will never apologize for who I am and what I believe....ok I digress....I told you about my exchanges with "Christians" lately so maybe I am overly sensitive....

I did receive some major blessings yesterday, my friend Dena had her cleaning service call me to see what my needs would be before and after my surgery....the lady that called even let me know she and her partner were praying with me and for me....My children's teachers will do homework afterschool with my children Monday - Thursday so that when they come home, it's all about mommie:) My friend Yolande is organizing a dinner schedule....she and other mom's do not know how hard it is for me to ask for help and even appear to need help, but I have learned to shut my mouth and stop blocking my blessings......especially with Yolande because she never shuts up;) Amazing women surround me....

I read Marcus Buckingham all the time and if you don't know who he is I highly recommend ANY of his books. One of my school friends brought him up yesterday and hit a spot with me. I have the arrogance and audacity to believe I am going to be o.k. and emerge even stronger, self-confident and healthier.....might even bring sexy back:):) hahaha.....

I know this because I have wisdom. I read Proverbs 4:5-6 today where it tells us biblically to get wisdom and understanding.....

Wisdom allows me to see my life from the perspective of GOD but also intelligently make decisions that are best for me. Not everyone will agree with you all of the time. Not everyone will give you their total support ALL of the time....you would be looking at cult like behavior at this point, but people can understand you....I have gained wisdom that has allowed me to look at my situation with clarity and understanding.

No matter what I may be going through GOD's gift of wisdom is guiding my hand (sometimes off of the throat of another person) and SAVING MY LIFE.....