Saturday, May 30, 2009

Changes....

So today I am feeling better…still a little blue and it’s not just from the small bruises where my veins were hit. One of the teacher’s at my kids school sent a note stating this year was bittersweet, she was moving on like about 9/10ths of the entire school. You see this has been a tumultuous year full of regrets, disappointments, a fair share of gossip and innuendos from "Christians" no less….and through it all I am dealing with a health crisis. Ordinarily I would have been in the trenches trying to fight trying to save any ounce of dignity the school had in the Catholic school community but I couldn’t….just physically couldn’t. So I did what any mother who cares about the safety and well being of her children would do: I have registered them at another school. Some may not agree with that decision, but who cares….they are my kids and I can do what I want.

Ya see Abraham Lincoln said a house divided will never stand….and that’s the simplicity of it…stability. Our families have put blood, sweat and tears into that school (literally) and to have been treated the way we were this year I can easily say bye-bye without fear or regret for the future. Cancer taught me to shake fear and uncertainty. After what I have been through, which is minuscule compared to other women, but nonetheless my pain is real; I can stand tall, be steadfast in my decisions and erase apprehensions. Sure I straddle the line between optimism and panic, defenselessness and control, weakness and vivacity. But knowing that this life is not a dress rehearsal, the decisions I make must have meaning and strength. I have learned a pretty neat trick over the last few months, how to live with all of the trepidation and channel that into positive energy. So that’s what I did. Instead of trying to figure out the who, what and why I searched for schools with the same sense of community we longed for and where love was spoken. I tuned out all of the influences and forged ahead with my plans to move my children. Some of my friends were on the fence, many have jumped and followed and others are still hanging on, while a few never knew the fence existed. In each instance it’s ok. I did what was best for MY kids and that’s the bottom line.

“As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them." - John F. Kennedy. When you send your kids to Catholic school your level of expectation is higher. One, because you pay tuition and two, because of the Christian element interwoven in the curriculum. Ya see leadership is more than a title, it’s an action. Leadership is more than barking orders and signing checks. Leadership does not make you a demigod. And lipstick on a pig is REALLY lipstick on a pig. It is the responsibility of the leader to make sure the organizational culture is stable and if you are coming to a strong culture you are to conform NOT completely change that culture. I don’t make this stuff up; I actually teach it so I know what I am talking about…teeheehee


My grandfather had a few sayings that are appropriate to how I feel about some people right now: 1. You never know who your gonna get your last glass of water from and 2. You will be ultimately judged by how you treated the weakest of you community. Hmmm, considering how the school community is at the moment, some people are going to die a long, horrible death and end up in hell with nothing to drink!!!

President Obama ran on the platform of change and said in his acceptance speech “Change has come to America” Well that same sentiment has come to the Hunley house. We are in for some changes and in my heart of hearts I know the changes will be for the best. I also believe part of my recovery has been slowed by the worry of yesterdays, but I spoke to GOD and things will be ok, because he is there for us. When you turn it over to GOD as Isaiah 40:29, 31 tells me he gives strength to those that are tired and power to those that are weak…..I am still finding my peace in the eye of the hurricane….SAVING MY LIFE…..

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